Man Jobs

I'm finding since my divorce, that I now have to do all the house maintenance myself...the MAN JOBS. I noticed back in say July, that I had plants growing in my eaves troughs?? I asked the Ex about it and he said they have to be cleaned out yearly, he used to do it each year...who knew? Certainly not I. The outside stuff was his department, not mine. I kept up the inside. So anyways, all these months I have put it off because I didn't think it wise to get on a ladder when I wanted to be lazy no one else was here. Then yesterday, I decided enough was enough. I had been out and about, and decided to by outside lights to hang for the holidays...for my daughters sake ;) I get home...pull out the ladder and realized before I hung the lights, it was TIME to clean the eaves troughs...because they certainly weren't going to clean themselves!(they never got done last year because, I was in such a fog I hadn't paid attention) It was EASY! Shelby was playing having a good time in the leaves and dirt and stayed away from the ladder as told. After completing that task I began on the lights, and I must say...I did a better job of hanging them then my Ex ever did!! Women just do things much neater than men, yah know? So anyways, I have been patting myself on the back ever since, and I'm pretty sure I've told everyone I know what a fabulous job I did.lol  What I am not looking forward to next, in my new found MAN JOBS is shoveling snow! *Grrrrrrrrrr* The past couple of years when I've had to do it, I curse my unfriendly neighbors with their snow blowers, for not helping out a single mom...I do this the entire time the shovel is in my hand! I then proceed to curse the city for as soon as I finish my LONG driveway, they conveniently decide to plow my street...leaving the end of the drive in a huge snowdrift!!! bastards

Halloween with Daddy

First off, let me say WAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!! <~~~That's me crying. I know, pretty pathetic but it SUCKS not being able to take your 28 month old child trick or treating! I HATE myself for not being clever enough at the time of my divorce, to have it included in the paper work that I get her for EVERY holiday. At the time he would have agreed to it, hell he would have given me a kidney if I said I wanted it then. I just don't get why I should have to miss out on that stuff? I mean...I was the one after all, who put her to bed for the first 27 MONTHS of her life, not to mention the only person to bathe her all that time too. Certainly I deserve something for being the better parent, right?! Ok, so I am partially joking. I would never keep my daughter from her father, although truth be told...I did consider telling him she had the flu the first time she was to stay the night with him!(which sadly was when she again, was 27 months) He loves and adores her, but he don't make her a priority in his life like he should. Like, he's never taken her on his Sundays EVER...because that's his day for himself. And I don't press the issue because I would rather have her with ME. Let's face it, I had her because I wanted her...he had her because it was what I wanted.(his words not mine) Now he wants his new wife more.(those are my words)lol  So yeah, tonight sucks but I know she'll be home sooner rather than later because, that's how her Daddy rolls ;)  For now I will just count the minutes until she gets home...we have a *Play Doh* date this evening, didn't yah know?!  =) 

Welcome One & All

I really probably could have just wrote, "Welcome One"...the one being myself, which is ok, really. This is just a place so I can vent, put down my feelings, and let's face it...brag about my kid! I'm 38, divorced and the mother of one adorable daughter, Shelby. Her father left me when she was nearly 6 months old. He was cheating since before she was born. Although he won't admit it, I know it to be true. Let's just put it this way, he don't deny it. Any~who, I could go into all the hurtful details, but suffice it to say...he has been remarried since our daughter was 20 months!! That should be enough to let you all know how wonderful he is.*sarcasm* But I'm sure if I actually use this blog more than a week with out tiring of it, you will eventually get the whole story out of me. I'm pretty much an open book...that don't know when to shut it's mouth! ;)  As for motherhood, it has literally saved my life. My daughter is the most important part of ME and my life, and I truly am blessed to have her. I will admit though that being the mother of one can be rather tiresome. I have to be the cowboy, the Indian and the chief! It's days like those that I wish I had been a much younger mother.lol  And the anxiety part of my blog, ties in with the motherhood part. Someone seriously should have told me about this ahead of time! I was never a worry wort prior to giving birth, but boy am I now. I am so bad, my child has maybe slept in her crib 20 times...maybe. She sleeps with me because I swear to you, all I can think of is if the house catches fire and I can't get to her, or if some mass murderer breaks in...see what I mean! It's super crazy and I know this, but none the less this is only SOME of my anxiety.  So if you feel connected to me some how after reading my rants blog,  then feel free to cop a squat, you know...sit and stay a while =)

~Careigh